Breathe (Part 2)

Part 1 – if you missed it

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Sometimes, we ladies forget that we’re human.  And so it makes it that much more difficult when we have to admit that we need help.

Asking for help from my husband (and even mentioning specific ways in which he could show me love and support during this particularly stressful time) – as amazing as he is – was hard for me.  But I had to.  Admitting to a friend that I was really struggling with being stretched so thin was humbling.  But admitting it (and knowing she was praying with me about it) was healing.  Realizing that I had to choose between a cleaner house and quality time with my clingy 16-month-old forced me to give up control, but it was a choice well made.  He always comes first.

The leaning tower of laundry in my bedroom will be there tomorrow… or the next day…or the next day.  For now, I’m closing the bedroom door so that I don’t have to look at it.  😉

And letting myself cry and feel all the emotions that were surrounding me was unfamiliar.  But then afterward, it felt healthy…

It was a really, REALLY tough week.  I don’t know that I’ve ever before been in a place like that, because I rarely have a hard time smiling and seeing the positive.  But I imagine there will be more times like that in my lifetime. However, going through that – and not being able to handle it all – didn’t make me a failure as a woman or as a mom.

I know that now!

I will make mistakes.  I will sometimes (many times) wish that I could do more.  But I have to do my best and trust the rest to the One who can be everything.  He did create women with Superpowers.  🙂  He created us to be strong, and loving, and passionate, and with an insatiable desire to give.  But He didn’t create us to bear the weight of the world on our shoulders.

Only He can do that.  And so I ultimately only fail when I stop looking to Him for answers, strength, protection, forgiveness, grace, and guidance.  🙂  I need to look to Him.  He will be sufficient when I am not.

Once I released everything to Him and allowed myself to be human, I stopped being so hard on myself.  It released me from the guilt.  From that overwhelming need to be in control and on top of everything.  It reminded me to take a deep breath, do what I can, and find all the beautiful reasons in my life to smile.

The joy of the Lord really is my strength.  But the joy and the strength comes from Him!  And we moms sometimes need to be reminded that just because we can’t handle it all sometimes (or that sometimes we do need to cry; have a really, REALLY bad day; or learn to say ‘no’), it doesn’t mean we’re failing… or not being Super-mom.  It just means that we’re human.

And that’s okay… because that’s what we were created to be.  🙂

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7 thoughts on “Breathe (Part 2)”

  1. Girl, I am right there with you- in all this. I love how He uses all things (including Motherhood) to show us more about who we are in Him. Happy you are in a place to let all the “need to do’s” go. I’ve been finding this new way for a coupl months and it’s pretty amazing. 😊

  2. Beautifully said!! Even as a single girl WITHOUT kids I often feel overwhelmed. Balancing a full day at work with night school with family and friends…and then doing it all again the next day…can make a person go crazy after a while. Thank you for this lovely post…you are truly a wonderful person.

  3. Ah! I’m so proud of you for reaching out to whatever resources you have available. It’s SO hard sometimes! Often, actually. You’re an amazing woman, not for being superwoman, but for being real and vulnerable and just completely you. I love you!

  4. I love these Breathe posts, Nicole. As you know, I had a rough week last week, too. Realizing that it’s okay and that it’s actually good to FEEL my feelings and accept them has been such a learning process for me. Just knowing that it’s okay to have a bad day or feel anxious or sad has been a sweet release.

    Isn’t it amazing that women have the desire to do SO much for others? When we learn that’s how we’re wired and that God is the One who can do all and that we’re only human we can then relax and let go of the guilt! Thank you for these beautiful reminders!

  5. Sounds like you’re really coming out of it. Glad you found an outlet and a way to just take a deep breath and be. I’m sure those chunky baby thighs and that sweet face help 🙂

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