Part 1 – if you missed it
Sometimes, we ladies forget that we’re human. And so it makes it that much more difficult when we have to admit that we need help.
Asking for help from my husband (and even mentioning specific ways in which he could show me love and support during this particularly stressful time) – as amazing as he is – was hard for me. But I had to. Admitting to a friend that I was really struggling with being stretched so thin was humbling. But admitting it (and knowing she was praying with me about it) was healing. Realizing that I had to choose between a cleaner house and quality time with my clingy 16-month-old forced me to give up control, but it was a choice well made. He always comes first.
The leaning tower of laundry in my bedroom will be there tomorrow… or the next day…or the next day. For now, I’m closing the bedroom door so that I don’t have to look at it. 😉
And letting myself cry and feel all the emotions that were surrounding me was unfamiliar. But then afterward, it felt healthy…
It was a really, REALLY tough week. I don’t know that I’ve ever before been in a place like that, because I rarely have a hard time smiling and seeing the positive. But I imagine there will be more times like that in my lifetime. However, going through that – and not being able to handle it all – didn’t make me a failure as a woman or as a mom.
I know that now!
I will make mistakes. I will sometimes (many times) wish that I could do more. But I have to do my best and trust the rest to the One who can be everything. He did create women with Superpowers. 🙂 He created us to be strong, and loving, and passionate, and with an insatiable desire to give. But He didn’t create us to bear the weight of the world on our shoulders.
Only He can do that. And so I ultimately only fail when I stop looking to Him for answers, strength, protection, forgiveness, grace, and guidance. 🙂 I need to look to Him. He will be sufficient when I am not.
Once I released everything to Him and allowed myself to be human, I stopped being so hard on myself. It released me from the guilt. From that overwhelming need to be in control and on top of everything. It reminded me to take a deep breath, do what I can, and find all the beautiful reasons in my life to smile.
The joy of the Lord really is my strength. But the joy and the strength comes from Him! And we moms sometimes need to be reminded that just because we can’t handle it all sometimes (or that sometimes we do need to cry; have a really, REALLY bad day; or learn to say ‘no’), it doesn’t mean we’re failing… or not being Super-mom. It just means that we’re human.
And that’s okay… because that’s what we were created to be. 🙂