With a new year right around the corner, I’ve been thinking a lot lately about New Year’s resolutions. Well, New Year goals, actually. I don’t like to think of them as resolutions, because those tend to be pushed aside – and ultimately forgotten – rather quickly. Instead, I like to evaluate and come up with attainable goals.
Honestly, for 2016, my biggest goal is to rediscover myself. This past year, I definitely lost myself in the mommy life, which – I’ve been assured – is very common for new moms. And although there’s nothing more precious to lose yourself in, it’s also extremely important for a woman to hold onto herself as an individual as well.
I will never have the free time that I once had, and that’s really-truly okay. Brady is worth every sleepless night and don’t-stop-for-a-second day. 🙂 But at the same time, especially now that Nate is able to babysit for me when needed, I most definitely need to invest in my own personal life too.
Gosh, I’m experiencing mommy guilt just writing that! But it’s true! It’s true, I tell you! We moms forget that we matter too.
I’ll have to be smart about it; and the things I love to do will be a bit scattered throughout the month, because quality time with Brady is most important to me!! But I really need to make time for my own hobbies and interests. I need to feel refreshed, and fulfilled, and excited; so that I can – in turn – be the best mommy (and wife) that I possibly can be.
When I get lost in the preparing meals, folding laundry, and chasing after a little boy who gets into everything? I’m happy… but I’m also kind of just existing sometimes. I settle into a robotic routine that finds me going through the motions. And when I make time for the hobbies that fulfill me, I realize that I have more energy to be the bubbly, energetic mom that I really want to be (even without loads of caffeine to keep me going). 😉
Sooooo, I’ve been thinking a lot about this upcoming year.
I’m thinking about taking a digital photography class… Maybe another cake decorating class too. I’d love to exercise three days a week since I’m not really doing anything physical right now. I want to put more effort into being an awesome wife and making quality time for me and Nate, because our relationship should still come first. And I think I’d like to maybe actually take more than five minutes to do my hair, makeup, and outfit a few times a month just so I can feel confident and put together. (I miss that; and although I wouldn’t want to do it every day, it would be nice to maybe do it on special occasions).
I think I’m going to do it! All of it. And more than that too. 🙂 Not all at once and maybe not all the time. But bits here and there! And I know that this journey to find balance and to rediscover myself is going to be worth it… and amazing.