In the grand scheme of things, I’ve been a mom for a very short amount of time; but I’ve already come to the very definite conclusion that nothing prepares you for the amazing, crazy, perfect, I’m-about-to-pull-my-hair-out journey that is motherhood. I often feel as though I’m in over my head, but then I’m told that this is perfectly natural. As is crying for no apparent reason, randomly singing happy songs, smiling because I’m so happy that I could explode, and then feeling as though I’m about to die.
All perfectly natural! That calms me somehow, actually. To know that the mixed feelings of intense happiness and impending doom have been experienced by so many other moms before me. 🙂
My baby Brady is now five weeks old, which I find nearly impossible to believe. Five weeks of snuggles, baby coos, countless diaper changes, breastfeeding struggles (and victories), and sleepless nights. Sometimes it feels as though it’s already been a lifetime of change and exhaustion, while there are other moments during which I wish I could slow down time, even if just for a little while. At this rate, I’ll blink my eyes only to see him wearing a suit and tie before his first job interview.
At which point I’ll show him this picture and embarrass him as only a loving mother can. 😉
Anyway, it’s a ridiculously-dramatic change once your title transitions to ‘mommy’. Overnight, you suddenly eat, sleep, and breathe caring for a squishy, adorable baby that is your everything. And while there is nothing as beautiful as that motherly love, there is also nothing as exhausting as the job that comes with it. Let’s face it, CVS pharmacy has absolutely nothing on you. You are open 24/7, always available for emotional and physical support. It’s magical… it’s draining… And it’s something that you wouldn’t trade for all the money in the world.
I had given myself December to just kind of survive… Schedules and to-do lists were thrown out the window. We ate freezermeals, watched plenty of Christmas specials, and let the dust-bunnies pile up on the furniture. I know, who am I?? I used to be so obsessed with structure and keeping a clean house. 😉 (My bestie Liz is shaking her head in agreement at this part. Ha, ha).
Life has followed no pattern and is dictated by the needs of my little guy. And honestly, I expect January to be more of the same. But still, I’m hoping to bring some sort of schedule back into my life, even if it’s as simple as assigning chores to particular days. 🙂
At this point, if I have a set laundry day for my clothes, I’ll feel as though I’m crazy-organized.
If those chores don’t get done though, I’m learning that’s okay. I’m a mom. My priorities have shifted a whole lot.
So if a warm day sneaks into the winter months and we’re able to go for a walk in the park as a family, you can be sure that we’ll all be bundled up to go. Because dusting can wait. Right now, we’re all about living in the moment!! 🙂 And fresh air sure does feel good when you’re a new mama!!