So I apologize for disappearing without really saying anything. 🙂 I’m still here, I promise.
Emotions are a funny thing, apparently. Well, not exactly funny. Maybe a more accurate description would be to say that they’re sneaky little things.
Some of you know more than others, since I haven’t blogged about it all that much, but most of you know that my hubby Nate was severely injured last June. In previous blogs, I merely stated that he had been in an accident, because of the attention that the assault caused. But I think I can now at least say, since the drama and attention has all died down, that he works in public safety and was stabbed in the line of duty. He almost died because the weapon went through his neck and missed his spinal chord by 1/2 centimeter. It’s a miracle that he’s walking, breathing, eating, and speaking today; because the original diagnosis was that he wouldn’t be able to do any of those things, if he survived surgery.
Well, I’ve been having flash-backs of everything that happened. I’ll be randomly doing something, and then suddenly I can feel all of that fear and hurt all over again. Mostly, I see Nate’s face and feel how helpless I was in that moment. Sometimes, I even have dreams about it and then wake up in tears.
I tried ignoring all those emotions for over a week, which — in the end — turned out to be the wrong choice. Because the end result was me being sent home from work after having a tearful melt-down in front of my manager. *Sheepish Grin*
Anyway, I’ve learned a lot about myself over the past few days, and I’ve also learned that sometimes the emotions that come with trauma don’t hit until much later. I’ve also learned that it’s important to deal with it and not try to push it under a rug.
So all that to say, I am feeling MUCH better and MUCH more like my happy, bubbly, strong, and energetic self. So I should be back to blogging on Monday.
Thank you for all of your support! You guys rock!
Happy Friday!! 🙂