I’ve always been a stress-runner…
Jogging helps to clear my mind of all that ‘stuff’ I may have been thinking about a little too much. It helps me focus. It’s just me, the neighborhood, and a whole lot of prayers.
And somehow, I always feel a little better after I’ve finished. I might be limping a little from a bum knee or a tight hip that doesn’t seem to like me very much. But I feel more at peace.
Somehow even more rested, even if I might be physically exhausted.
Tonight I needed to run. With a funeral for a much-loved family member coming up and emotions left-over from everything that happened to Nate, there was a lot racing through my mind at speeds I couldn’t process. So when Nate and I were driving back from a nearby campground where we had gone for a liesurely walk, I asked him if he could drop me off about 2 miles from home. He agreed, but reached for my hand and gave it a squeeze. I squeezed it back and sent him a smile that said, “Don’t worry, I’m okay.”
He dropped me off as I had requested and drove off, quickly disappearing around a corner. I started to run and focused on my slow, steady breathing. The sound of my feet hitting the pavement.
I waited for those thoughts and emotions to disappear, but they refused. They made it hard to breathe. And I suddenly felt a little over-whelmed. Maybe a little lonely. A little lost.
I was pushing myself up the first hill and was almost at the top when I heard a man’s voice yell, “You’re doing great!”
I looked up to wave a ‘thank you’ to my myserious cheer-leader and then laughed when I realized it was Nate. Whether his protective side had kicked in when he dropped me off on the side of the road, or he was inspired by a current television commercial, or he just knew that I needed someone with me, he had waited at the halfway mark…. just to tell me that I could make it.
That is when I didn’t feel lonely anymore. And that is when I spent the rest of my run sending up some ‘thank you’s to a God who had given me such a special guy!
Because even when I tried to look brave and strong, he knew that I needed someone to be brave and strong for me. And so he was.